Days of disorientation…

…have been on for a long while now and they don’t seem to come to an end! And I don’t like it one bit. One bit!

And unlike others, when I vanish from my blog, nobody cares. Nobody calls up. Mail do not flood my inbox asking me if I’m alright, where I am, why there are no posts… Nothing, none of that. That depresses me. Nobody cares ๐Ÿ˜€ ๐Ÿ˜€ ๐Ÿ˜€ย  Ah well, Scribby did ask. She cares…and I now love her for that!

I missed a lot many of your posts, but most of them, I read. Some I “like”d, some I just read, smiled and closed off. No favouritism there ๐Ÿ™‚ Just too lazy to “log in to WP to ‘Like'” ๐Ÿ˜‰

It’s been almost 2-and-a-half months since I blogged last. Not because I had nothing to blog about — in fact, a lot happened over the last 2 months and 10 days. It’s just that I’d been wallowing in depression and disorientation, I’ve not been able to make myself log in here and crib write about it, or about anything at all, for that matter.

  • Celebrated Onam well, minus the pookkalams like last time. Pumbaa had his first ever Onam Sadya — and drooled all over the place while I made him pose…and slurped and gulped it all down in a jiffy! ๐Ÿ™‚
    Pumbaa Nayar Thomas' very first Onam Sadya ;)

    Pumbaa Nayar Thomas' very first Onam Sadya ๐Ÿ˜‰

    • I quit IBM. I put in my papers early September, and I went into depression. Well, it was my decision, but I had really liked working there. There was something comforting about that place, the team, the work… Learnt a lot, went through a lot, lost some “friends”. Gained some real awesome ones ๐Ÿ™‚ย  — the only thing I’ll miss so very terribly for a looooooong time! So well, though it was my decision, I do regret it at times. But things did change drastically recently (which may also have fuelled my decision to leave; certain people and their principles did not agree with me, though quitting a company because of that may sound an immature act. Well, you need to be there to know it, so don’t judge me yet ๐Ÿ˜‰ ). And for the record, she also quit on the same day ๐Ÿ˜€ย  And like I told a manager, I referred her there, and when I left, I took her along ๐Ÿ˜‰
  • I went on a team trip from office early October, to Pondicherry. Was it awesome!!! ๐Ÿ™‚ We left on a Friday late night and reached back Sunday night — after having a ton of fun. I loooooooooooooooved the beach time. The bunch of us walked into a private beach on a sizzling afternoon, around 2, and stayed on till about close to 6. It was splendid. And the Sunday morning walk…it was bliss. Thanks for that, Binoy ๐Ÿ™‚ย  I don’t think I’d have gone on that walk alone — and if you hadn’t come up with that idea, it’d have been a loss! Thanks for the trip too. I owe you a whole post for being such a great friend ๐Ÿ˜‰

    The beach was all ours! :)

    The beach was all ours! ๐Ÿ™‚ -- at Pondicherry

  • Pumbaa turned one (Happy Birthday, Pumbaa!) on October 10. We celebrated his birthday, decorated the house, bought him a load of gifts and made him a special “beef biriyani” birthday cake ๐Ÿ˜€ The grandma painstakingly carved out “HAPPY BIRTHDAY” from carrots, because Pumbaa loves carrots ๐Ÿ˜€ He downed it all. It was pure neglect and sacrilege on my part not to have posted at least that. Paaavam Pumbaa ๐Ÿ˜ฆ I even posted the pics on FB quite late! Here’s a pic. More here.

    Happy Birthday, Pumbaaaaaaa :)

    Happy Birthday, Pumbaaaaaaa ๐Ÿ™‚

  • I went for a “Nostalgia Night” at Resource Communications, the one place I had ALWAYS loved working in, and the one place I’d love to work in, any day ๐Ÿ™‚ย  It was on a Friday night, and I wasn’t sure I’d be able to make it. But I managed to, thanks to Suraj. It was perhaps one of the BEST decisions I’ve taken. It was awesome being back there, meeting all those people, walking around in that awesome place. Thanks for hosting it, Jayadev and Chicku! You people rock!

    After a night of Resource...ful memories!

    After a night of Resource...ful memories!

  • It was my birthday too, recently. Well, no grand gifts this time, but got a FABULOUS cake — of Calvin & Hobbes. It was sooooo superbly done! I wanted a cardigan, so while Suraj took me shopping, the brother, father and mother decked up the terrace, set the cake and balloons and waited for me to come back! It was awesome ๐Ÿ™‚

    The god-awesome Calvin&Hobbes Cake :)

    The god-awesome Calvin&Hobbes Cake ๐Ÿ™‚

  • Hate being at home, in a state of indecision and confusion. Hate taking it on others, so trying not to talk about it much. Would love to enjoy it as a vacation, but there’s work keeping me occupied and worries keeping me in a perpetual state of disturbance.
  • Love the weather. Bought a cardigan (finally!) and promptly lost it the very next day at the bank — and didn’t realise it until after 4 days. Bah to me, seriously! Ugh!
  • Want to get back to blogging — like I used to. Wonder what’s stopping me ๐Ÿ˜ฆ
  • The only place I want to go to, to live in, EVER is Goa. There! I’ve said it, put it down in writing. Goa, Goa, Goa. Not Kochi, not anywhere else ๐Ÿ˜ฆ
  • The parents have decided to relocate back to Trivandrum. We’ll miss them ๐Ÿ˜ฆย  They’ll miss Pumbaa ๐Ÿ˜ฆย  Pumbaa’ll miss them ๐Ÿ˜ฆ
  • Vimmuuu relocated to Kochi, and likes it better than Trivandrum. Bah to you, pseudo spidey! I don’t like you anymore ๐Ÿ˜ฆ

Okay! I’m done for now. I wonder when I’ll be back — both, to being myself, and to my blog. Too much time, is sometime, very little! Sigh!

43 thoughts on “Days of disorientation…

  1. Ohh but I did miss you … and wondered why you had gone into hiding ! (see I am the first person to respond to this post ๐Ÿ™‚ )
    I just didnt want to intrude by sending you nosy mails asking you where you are ! I hope and pray the days of disorientation end soon .. stop wallowing in depreession and disorientation … snap out of it ! Hugs and good wishes coming your way !


  2. Dont say that no one cares .. that is wrong.. I am sure every one does

    a post from you after ages yesssssssssss ๐Ÿ™‚

    lovely pictures and hope you write more often AND BY THE WAY what you have written I can say the same in context to you ๐Ÿ˜ฆ


  3. Ayyo ae maa appadi solre!
    Ofcourse I missed u and ws happy to see Pumbaa’s pics and ur bday update on FB ๐Ÿ˜€
    So, wishes to all of you again and eh, I feel like quitting awesome places when it sort of doesn’t feel right in certain ways too ๐Ÿ™‚ Hugs and keep blogging!:)


    • Hehehe…whatever is followed by a ” ๐Ÿ˜€ ๐Ÿ˜€ ๐Ÿ˜€ ” is NOT to be taken seriously. I just needed some “of course we missed you…”s…and i’ve gotthem. i’m happy now ๐Ÿ˜‰ ๐Ÿ˜‰

      gosh…so relieved to know i’m not the only one ๐Ÿ˜€

      hugs right back ๐Ÿ™‚


  4. Pumba’s looking cute and the cake looks so yummmm…… ๐Ÿ˜€
    Everyone missed you and that includes me too…. Its good to see you back and keep posting now… ๐Ÿ™‚
    All the best and I’m sure you took the right decision….


  5. Welcome back!! looking forward to more posts from you and not sure whether I should say a congrats or not for quitting IBM, even if it did not turned out well, please don’t regret, whatever happens, happens for good, ok I should stop preaching and let you be you.. Have fun, keep smiling and writing ๐Ÿ™‚


    • Hehe…frankly, I didn’t notice that — coz i was missing too ๐Ÿ˜€

      Hehe…you did!? ๐Ÿ™‚ Yay! People missed me!

      Good…great minds always think alike ๐Ÿ˜€ Lets motivate each other to stay ๐Ÿ˜‰

      I know. SIgh! I want one more ๐Ÿ˜€ I think I want one more birthday as well. ๐Ÿ˜€


  6. I think half the reason why people are not asking where you are, is only because we are getting used to posting infrequently on the blog. I don’t know how much of a good or bad thing it is.

    Ok loads of things happening eh?
    So what plans now? Do you look for other jobs? Or just take a break? It’s fun to just pursue a hobby, travel, do things you would otherwise not have been able to, while you were working……

    Happy belated bday to Pumbaaaa!! ๐Ÿ˜€ ๐Ÿ˜€ Big hugs to him!!
    He actually loves the sadya?? My dog wouldn’t touch anything except the payasam. ๐Ÿ˜› He’s too used to non-veg. The next dog I get, I’m gonna get him/her to eat anything and everything. Much easier, I tell ya!

    I love the name Pumba Nayar Thomas!! ๐Ÿ˜€ ๐Ÿ˜€

    thereโ€™s work keeping me occupied and worries keeping me in a perpetual state of disturbance.
    What work? Thought you resigned. Is there something else happening in life?

    Thought you loved Bangalore and Kochi. Why (only) Goa?


    • Welcome to my blog ๐Ÿ™‚
      Thanks! He’s the most important member of the family…hehe…we make sure he gets the best of everything, first! ๐Ÿ˜€

      Thanks, I will. ANd you keep visiting too ๐Ÿ™‚


  7. Pumbaa is so adorable. I cannot tell you how, how much! Gawd.
    The bit about IBM makes me nostalgic. Its weird how you get so attached to a place that it remains in your memories for good.
    PS: I love Goa too! When you decide to go live there, do ping me. ๐Ÿ˜€
    Be back to blogging full-time soon. Looks like all the good people were away from blogging at the same time. ๐Ÿ˜‰


    • Hehehehe…i think i have a vague idea ๐Ÿ˜‰

      i miss tht place sooo damn bad…and as i’m typing this, i’m listening to a song i used to listen to in a loop while at work. that makes me miss it even more, and makes me even sadder. waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhh ๐Ÿ˜ฆ


  8. ellaaam manasilaakaam, pakshe paavam enne endinu ingudu kondu vannu !!! ๐Ÿ˜€ ๐Ÿ˜€ ๐Ÿ˜€

    Trust me, I dont like Kochi too, I just find it better than Trivandrum in terms of the amenities ! and also the people ! and also the girls ! and also…aah, neva mind.

    That said, when I went to Trivandrum last week, I felt how much I miss Trivandrum ๐Ÿ˜ฆ Trivandrum is the most beautiful city I have ever been to ! ๐Ÿ™‚

    sandoshaayallaa ?? samadaanamayalla ????


    • evidem iyaale onnu kuttam paranjillel no samaadhaanam ๐Ÿ˜€
      pinne ithremokke paranja sthithikku — eda thendiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii (mukesh style) kochi will be horrible for you…nokkikko ๐Ÿ˜€ ๐Ÿ˜€ ๐Ÿ˜€
      oh…yu called tvm beautifool ๐Ÿ˜€ athu njaan kandilla ๐Ÿ˜€ ๐Ÿ˜€ ๐Ÿ˜€


  9. hola! welcome bck ๐Ÿ™‚ is it ok to say congratss on being jobless? ๐Ÿ˜› coz even i quit my job n moved to sydney nw totally vetti. i quit my first job after 4.5 years and god hw much i miss the people there.. good times with friends ๐Ÿ™‚ loved the pics of pumbaaa he so adorable b’lated b’day wishes to him and ur cake was so awesomeeee:D b’lated b’day wishes ๐Ÿ™‚ hope u have a gr8 year ahead.. blogging and in every other thing u do! :d


    • Hola…I was just done reading your blog when I saw this comment!
      Hehe…so congrats to you too ๐Ÿ˜‰
      Hows it going there? Sydney treating you well? ๐Ÿ™‚
      Thanks girl…and good luck on your new beginnings too ๐Ÿ™‚


  10. Miss your presence here, Priya and I still find it hard to believe that u have left the company. I have got your seat now and it’s such a weird feeling, really.

    Take care. Shubhomita (the last person u mentored in CE team ๐Ÿ™‚


    • Awwww. Thanks for these words, Shubhomita!
      You have no idea how much I miss that place either! Yeah, Binoy told me you sit at my seat now — and I’m quite glad about it ๐Ÿ˜‰ Hope things are going well with you! ๐Ÿ™‚


  11. lol! cudnt read it ystrday and made it a point wil do today!!! while th expression was ๐Ÿ˜ฆ reading abt depression and disorientation (lol u can imagine my confusion wen u say tht abt IBM ๐Ÿ˜‰ ๐Ÿ˜› ๐Ÿ˜› ) and then the expression – ๐Ÿ™‚ wen u commented abt sme psuedo spidey!!! LOL! rhyming one! good one! ๐Ÿ˜‰


    • Hehehe…the depression abt IBM is coz i miss being with a few ppl and seeing them everyday…plus i still kinda miss the TP ๐Ÿ˜€

      hehehe…i seldom waste a chance to badmouth him ๐Ÿ˜€ ๐Ÿ˜€ ๐Ÿ˜€


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